Log in

No account? Create an account
Through my eyes [entries|friends|calendar]

[ website | My space ]
[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

(Believe in me?)

[02 Sep 2011|05:34am]
hey does anyone on here play on x-box live?

(1 shooting star | Believe in me?)

[01 Jun 2011|05:54am]
Sometimes life just happens all of the sudden.
I have one semester left of undergrad, working on getting into grad school over the summer and finding some means of employment and or volunteering someplace.
Today my boyfriend told me that he loved me for the first time. Although technically his llama hand puppet told my llama hand puppet that he loved him.
Same difference.
Some days i still feel like the loser i was in high school
today isn't one of those days.

(2 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

Why i'm unhappy [15 Jan 2010|04:44am]
For starters i'm already broke. I barely have 400 dollars to my name.
I do not have a car when i'm at school
which means that i can't go off campus
to find a job
which would alleviate the constant poorness
But no
Mom and Dad say they can't afford the insurance on the car
a total lie
since they could afford the insurance when i was in community college
but suddenly when i'm 100 miles away from home they can't.
Frankly they just want me to be miserable and i think it's because
I'm gay. Yes, they let my dead beat little brother do as he pleases
He gets to drive a 2006 Avero
And i'm sure sooner or later the little whore that he's fucking going to
get knocked up.
At least she'll be able to conceive there demon spawn in a plush leather environment.

I cant stand this shit anymore. I'm so sick of being told that i need to sacrifice when there isn't even a guarantee, hell i know that there won't be a job for me once i get my undergrad degree. I'm fucked no matter what the hell i do

I just want to curl into a ball and die.
Thank you and good night

(10 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

[18 Jul 2009|01:18am]
No luck in the guy department.
At all.
The only guys that seem to be hitting on me are,
either, really strange, (not that i have a problem with some quirkiness)
look like child molesters,
or are super fat. Yes i'm shallow
and yes, i have issues with my own body.
I guess when you come down to it, i'm just as conceited and just as vain as any other
homo living in the south east corner of michigan.
But damn it i'm cute, funny, i'm kind of going somewhere with my life.... what the hell, i'm sick of all
of these losers.

But the biggest loser i'm the most sick of

(4 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

Writer's Block: Prohibited [05 Dec 2008|02:25pm]
Today marks the passing of the 21st Amendment to the U.S. Constitution, which repealed Prohibition. It might seem crazy to us now, but alcohol was illegal in the U.S. for 13 years. What common vice do you think is most likely to be outlawed in the future?
Gay people.
Sure smoking cigarettes is bad for you, anyone who's ever gone to a health class is bombarded by this and then were those stupid truth commercials that were sometime just outright bizarre. But tobacco is not nearly as dangerous as your every day run of the mill homosexual.

If Prohibition was not proof that rights can be taken away just look at Prop 8 that basically defined marriage legally in California and basically nullified all gay marriages in the state. You can blame the poor blacks and latinos for going out and actually voting for what they view as a change. And you can also blame the ignorant hicks that are the Mormon church who spent over 30 million dollars in ads that supported prop 8. They played these ads in poor urban areas were many black and latinos reside, They manipulated the system with such finesse by playing these ads and playing upon how religious these minorities are which furthers there religious agenda.

But the root of all of this is falls squarely on the shoulders of the gays.
The pursuit for marriage is ridiculous. With all the constant drug usage and promiscuity that runs rampant in the whole gay scene gay people are not stable enough to handle such a delacate instatuion as marriage or raising a family. After all, all homo's are alike. The problem is that the gay community is forgetting it's proper place within our society which is to fix our hair, make our clothes, sing and dance in musical on the strange and to keep there gayness in poorly lit drug infested areas. At least that's how it is here in Detroit. We need to keep these people who are living such a decadent perverted lifestyle that promotes promiscuity, materialism and other sick strange and unnatural things that go against god's will out of sight.
I should know. I've had sex with several of them and sometimes with two or three of them at a time. And if doing something that feels that ...sensational then you know it just has to be bad for you!

(Believe in me?)

Writer's Block: What You'd Accomplish if Success Was Guaranteed [29 Aug 2008|09:33am]
Knowing beforehand that you wouldn't fail, what would you attempt to do?
I would so rule the world mwhahahhahaha!!!

(2 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

I'm [19 Feb 2008|09:21am]
feeling quite well today. I don't think theres anything anyone can say to me to bring me down. so go ahead and try to bring me down today because it's not going to work

(3 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

[29 Jan 2008|09:23pm]
Am i too mean and self centered? Why is it that all my "friends" do things and never invite me?
Seriously what's wrong with me?

(3 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

[09 Aug 2007|07:54pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Ask me a question about each of the following topics, no matter how rude, sexual, or confidential:

1. Friends
2. Sex
3. Music
4. Drugs
5. Love
6. LiveJournal

Then post this meme in your journal and see what questions you get asked!

I'm screening comments too

(8 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

[20 Jan 2007|12:53pm]
[ mood | mellow ]

So I think I’m pretty much just suffering from a broken heart. But my emoness will be taking a back seat since I feel like updating about what else is going on in my other wise uneventful life.

So classes start about a week ago. I like all of the classes that I’m taking this semester except for my math class but it isn’t too bad. I just need to remember to actually do my work. That’s the problem with self-paced courses, they’re a pain in the ass to do until the very last minute especially something that I have no interest in doing. But alas I must press on if I ever hope to get out of those cesspool of warren Michigan and go to a real college. I know the option of dropping out and make a meager living as a lowly fast food manger sounds wonderful and everything but I do aspire to try and make something out of my so called life.

I have the crazy transsexual history professor. Nicole Castle said he/she was very good professor and I’m sure he/she is. I only wish he/she would wear a wig. He has tits and nails and make up but no wig to at least make him seem like he’s a lady. It’s like Ms.Garrison from South park. It’s just creepy.

My political science teacher seems like an ass but not all geeks can be evil can they? I think he might be gay, at least he sounds kind of gay and sort of reminds me of my first boyfriend Ken. It’s not a good thing.

Work has been kind of shitty this past week. The supervisor and the owner didn’t seem to want me to be a manger anymore but apparently Beth the store manger said that she wanted me to still be a manger and that I have all this great potential. I guess that counts for something?

(4 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

Parting [21 Dec 2006|05:48am]
[ mood | predatory ]

So Brandon left sometime on Tuesday. Which now means that I am alone. That once again I am single though technically I was still single, we weren’t dating and I’m fine with that. It’s just who am I going to hang out with now other than Kelly? I’ve basically given up with speaking to Todd. He’s probably happier with me out of his life. Let him call me a hoe. I really don’t care anymore.

I took Brandon to see Imogen Heap last Monday. He seemed to enjoy himself and that’s all that really mattered. I was also inches away from her when she pranced around in the audience and I think Brandon even grabbed her ass. But he tends to be a compulsive liar sometimes. Imogen is a bit of a bitch. When she was done singing one of her songs she said something along the effects of “ I don’t mind if you sing along but please don’t be too loud. I need some quiet so I can hear myself.” And “ Now children please be quiet while I sing you a pretty song.” That bitch better hope we sing her fucking songs and shout her name. Egotism sickens me sometimes…

Xmas is almost upon us and I think I bought all I needed to buy. Except for the cards for work but that’s really it.

(2 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

Anonymous [30 Aug 2006|11:04pm]
Be anonymous
1. One secret.
2. One compliment.
3. One diss.
4. One random thing
5. One love note.
6. Lyrics to a song.
7. How old you are.
8. How long we've been friends.
9. And a hint to who you are.

(1 shooting star | Believe in me?)

My ABc's meme [05 Aug 2006|07:51am]
[ mood | complacent ]

A - Available: single...
A - Age: 20
A - Annoyance: stupid people, ignorance

B - Best feature: my sparkling and magnetic personality (or my biting sarcasim and cynacism)
B - Beer: taste yucky but gets the job done for half the price.
B - Birthday: july 23rd

C - Crush: i don't have on at the moment belive it or not.
C - Cari dn swedish fish.

D - Day or night: night
D - Dream Car: something stylish or sporty but since i don'tknow much about cars i couldn't tell you what i want.
D - Dogs or Cats: dogs or cats i like them both.

E - Egg nog: don't care for it
E - E-mail: Kabuki_tenshi@hotmail.com

F - Favorite color(s): green, blue, yellow, or purple. pink and black are cool too.
F - Favorite Band: too many.

G - Gummy Bears or Worms: gummy bears
G- Giver or taker: taker but i give back just as much.

H - Hair Color: some sort of brown
H - Height: 5'11 or 6'
H - Happy: well i'm not unhappy either

I - Ice Cream: mint chocolate chip or strawberry
I - Instrument: none. i can sort of sing in an off key type way
I - Idol: none

J - Jewelry: i have a few silver rings that i wear every so often
J - Job: = that i hate. i need a better paying one so i can move out...
J - Jail: shhh

K - Kids: i am far too selfish to have offspring
K - Kickboxing or karate: kick boxing
K - Kindergarten: don't remember it

L - Longest Car Ride: to chicago
L- Lamest Inside Joke: *makes threting hand jester* or lets face it theres always bk

M - Meat?: is something i wished i stopped eating.
M - Most missed person: my sis
M - Movie Last Watched: Madigascar

N - Number of Siblings : 2
N - Number of Tattoos: none
N - Name: Scott

O - One wish: to have good self esteem and to be 30 pounds lighter.
O - One regret: not going out with brandon. and not giving dcent guys a chance. i think thats why im so bitter and alone...

P - Part of your appearance you like best: my scowel.
P - Perfectionist? a bit
P - Piercings: none

Q - Quick or Slow: quick
Q - Quick..something random: i should go to bed

R - Reason to smile: i don't smile often. people always think i'm mad when half the time i'm not.
R - Reality TV Show: reality tv is the devil.

S - Song Last Heard: Escape - don't remember who it's by
S - Season: fall
S - Shoes your wearing: none.

T - Time you woke up: 5:30pm ish
T - Time you went to bed: 12:30pm ish
T - Time Now:7:42 am
T - Time for bed: whenever i'm tired and feel like i need to pass out

U - Unpredictable: i can be very random sometimes
U - Underwear: navy

V - Vegetable you hate: brusselsprouts
V - Vegetable you love: red peppers
V - Vacation spot: idk

W- Worst habit: i swear too much at work. i can also be a bit of a downer
W- Where are you going to travel next: good question
W- Weather: decent could be cooler though

X - X-tra special someone: ?
X - X-rays: teeth

Y - Year it is now: 2006
Y - Yellow: book

Z - Zoo Animal: Polar bears
Z - Zodiac Sign: Cancer/ Leo yay for being born on the cusp!

(7 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

A public post!? [16 May 2006|09:24pm]
So what's your honest opinion of me? Post it anonymously or logged in if you want. Remember honesty is what counts So be as bitchy or as nice as you want to be. Then I guess you can post this in your journal and see what others think of you.

(1 shooting star | Believe in me?)

[15 Jan 2006|05:06am]
I don't know what to belive anymore...

(6 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

[06 Dec 2005|11:04pm]
Stolen from hotarutenshi aka BOOBZILLA!
Respond with the following:

My name:
Where did we meet:
Take a stab at my middle name:
How long have you known me:
When is the last time that we saw each other:
Do I smoke:
Do I drink:
Do I curse:
Do I believe in God:
When is my birthday:
What was your first impression of upon meeting me:
Color of my eyes:
Do I have any siblings:
What's one of my favorite things to do:
Am I funny:
Do you remember one of the first things I said to you:
What's my favorite type of music:
What is the best feature about me:
Am I shy or outgoing:
Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:
Do I have any special talents:
Would you consider me a friend/good friend:
Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what):
Have you ever seen me cry:
Are my parents still together:
If I had broccoli stuck in my teeth would you tell me:
Have you ever hugged me:
Do you miss me...do you think i miss you:
What is my favorite food:
Have you ever had a crush on me:
If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:
What's your favorite memory of me:
What is my worst habit:
If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what one thing would I bring:

(6 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

[05 Dec 2005|07:15pm]
[ mood | grumpy ]

As you may or may not know I got into a wonderful fight with mom and dad, which resulted in me leaving my home temporarily. I returned Sunday night and it’s been uneasy around here. Make no mistake I will be trying to find a way to move out of this damn house. I would love to get my own apartment but the only problem with this is I have no credit. And I would need to have a roommate or two to spilt the rent. It just seems so hopeless right now.

School leaves me with a bitter taste in my mouth. I fear for my grades. Especially in English. If I don’t do better that a 75 I may have to take it over again… And I really don’t want to do that. The only good news I have for school is I already registered for classes next semester. I really wished I had taken time off from school but as they say there’s no rest for the wicked.

So I guess for the rest of the night I’m going to be preparing for my presentation on Wednesday and finishing some history homework.

Until then ciao!

(6 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

The greatest moments of my day today [22 Nov 2005|08:40pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

Phone rings and I answer
Me- Hello?
Telemarketer- Hello is Linda (insert bad pronunciation of my family’s last name) there?
Me- No
Telemarketer- Oh, well do you know a better time that we could reach her?
Me- How about never. **click**

At work with Jessica

Jessica: You know if the pilgrims killed a cat for thanksgiving dinner we would all be eating pussy!
Me: Well what if they killed a Roster? Could we say that we were going suck cock?

(4 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

From the smile and the look in there eyes [28 Sep 2005|12:37am]
[ mood | chipper ]

My head hurts.

Where to being? I guess I could complain about school and how icky it’s been. I got a D on my psyche exam. I should’ve studied. I now have to Ace these next few exams or I’ll be really disappointed in myself. I’ve just been so lazy. I also got my first paper back in English. Got an 80 on that. It’s not bad but it’s not great either. The professor said we could meet with her and would help us revise our papers for a better grade. I just may do it. I mean there really isn’t any reason why I shouldn’t. I also have a paper in English due this Monday and I still have no idea what I’m going to write about. We have to do a feature story of some and have 2 sources quoted in the paper. I haven’t picked a topic yet. I think I’ll end up doing something on gay marriage or something. And I think I’ll be doing fine in history so long as I remember to read the chapters.

Work has it’s ups and downs. Sunday was just terrible and I wanted to scream. I work over 30 hours this week and it makes me feel tired just thinking about it. But the good news is that I get paid this Friday. I’m not sure how much but I shall have some serious pocket change!

Oh and I met someone and hopefully he likes me. He bought me dinner tonight and it was just dandy.

(9 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

Seriously! [13 Aug 2005|12:25am]
Fuck you!

(44 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

That's right you ho's I am now [30 Jul 2005|01:09am]

(14 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

[25 Jul 2005|09:45pm]
It's been awhile since a wrote an actual entry. And this just may be my last. But before we go into that I would like to bring the matter of my family to light.

Yes i know you've been reading. I've known for quite some time. I was mad at first and I am still a little bit ticked off. I made this journal with the intent to use it as a place for me to help myself by venting. Writing in my journal helps me deal with things.

It would be nice if you, the members of my family, would stop reading about my life. There are just some things that you just don't need to know. The only thing I can really do is ask you to stop because really there isn't anything I can do to stop you from reading this.

Granted I could make my journal friends only but that isn't an option since there is a traitor on my friend's list! If you can recall, I wrote a filtered entry about a week ago concerning a gathering with some friends and then I got an e-mail from one of my aunts that had that journal entry entire copied word to word. It just isn't fair that I wrote something that I wanted to keep private and then you would turn around and betray that trust. Who it is I do not know for certain, though I do have a good idea as to who it may be. I ask you to come forward so I can confront you on this. Just IM me or write me and e-mail if you just want it to be between the two of us.

Oh and before I forget I also know that you know that I'm a proud filthy homo sexual. But I could careless if you approve or not. After all my parents act ashamed of me so there really isn't any reason why you shouldn't either. But then again who I sleep with really isn't anyone's business other than my own. And I don't need anyone's approval anymore.

(31 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

OMG it's my birthday.... Again! [23 Jul 2005|02:17am]
[ mood | crazy ]

And it seemed like i just turned 18 too.

Maybe now that I'm 19 I'll be more mature and be more adult like.

Then again i probably won't.

(11 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

Half Blood-Prince [20 Jul 2005|10:37pm]
Today i finished reading Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince.

This is what I thought about the book... WARNING CONTIANS SPOLIERS READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!!!Collapse )

(3 shooting stars | Believe in me?)

[19 Jul 2005|06:02am]
[ mood | calm ]

I'm on page 264 in the new Harry Potter Book. I must read more.

I guess it's about time I took the to start writing in here again. That thing about me not caring well i guess it's not so much that I don't care. It's just that i think it's about time for me to realize that I am an adult and that I shouldn't care too much what people think of me. I should try to focus on making my self well again and not let me depression get the best of me.

Which brings me to another point; I am who I am. I will continue to do things the way I see fit. And although it would be nice to have your blessings, I do not need them to continue. I can learn how to survive with out them.

[ viewing | most recent entries ]
[ go | earlier ]